Squirrely's been getting these really bad migraines everyday since the day before winter break started. And he's had to go to the ER twice already, and he's been to the doctor 4 times but they wont tell him anything. He thinks its one of two things:

1. The seratonine level in his brain is REALLY low, because of how much he used to do ecstasy last spring. Which was alot. 25 pills a week would fuck up anyones head, man. So basically, he might have too many holes in his brain.

2. The doctors say it might be an anurism, which is a blood clot, I think. If it's an anurism he might die. I don't even wanna think about that.

If Squirrely doesn't get better, i'm gonna kick his ass.  

I was prescribed risperdal today. What is that... let's see shall we?

Respirdal is an atypical antipsychotic used for treating schizophrenia and psychotic disorders.

Hmmm. Well isn't that interesting. Now lets look further, mmmkay.

A person who is psychotic is out of touch with reality. People with psychosis may hear "voices" or have strange and illogical ideas

For example: thinking that others can hear their thoughts, or are trying to harm them, or that they are the President of the United States or some other famous person.  

I

Am Not

CRAZY

Okay... this country is fucking sick. The government wants to put little chips in our fingertips. When you swipe them over a scanner, all your information will pop up.

That

is

so

SCARY!

And they're going to have tracking devices in them. Probably cameras too "just in case" you know. This country is just that ridiculous. It's too much. I can't deal with this country anymore. How fascist and paranoid are we??? The chips are supposed to help decrease terrorism or some such shit. Like having a little thing in your finger is gonna stop you from blowing some shit up. Honestly. Do they really think a kamakazi bomber is gonna worry about that? No morons, they aren't. This is so stupid. Have we no privacy anymore?!?! Isn't this unconstitutional? It's like something out of some creepy, b-rated sci-fi movie. You know, where the aliens or robots hone in on everything we do, and if you don't conform, they chop off your head, or blow you up or something.

This is nauseated.

Oh what's new, what's new?

It snowed. That wanks.

HA so my teacher comes up to me and says "I'm here for you." I was like wtf, dude? What is he even talking about? Jeezum I hope I dont look THAT bad, haha.

Went to the Pistols at Dawn show on Friday for Azi's birthday. Mmm punks are the funnest people. They have whiskey and they have some straight ass parties. Awesome awesome awesome.

Lets see. What else? Well thats about it

Life's uneventful

There's no daisies left

and my therapist drops acid.

Peace

It's my birthday. blah i'm seventeen. I'm not even used to 16 yet. I don't wanna grow up . I have the same bday as Jimi Hendrix AND Bruce Lee. That would explain my excellent fighting skills and my weird talent for playing incredible guitar shows on TWO hits of acid. Just Kidding. But Seriously.

Hmmm got The Wall on DVD. And Requiem for a Dream. I've seen that movie 5 times, but never remembered what it was about cuz it was under... annebriated circumstances. I watched it today. Turns out its pretty good.

Yup. Got lots of birthday cigarettes at school. One guy offered me some blow, haha. Oh the people I know. Broke or drugged.

I hate Justin. What a fucker.

I need more than .5 mg of lorazepam. Honestly, i'm small but im not that tiny.

Shit doesn't work.